60. When you're dreaming with a broken heart....The waking up is the hardest part

This post is dedicated to those who lost their lives yesterday. It was tragedy and a massacre and horrible and should ever happen again.I have no idea what the families are going through but when I think about the possibility of losing anyone of my siblings, I cant fathom it. I cant fathom losing anyone one of my closest family members again. I still miss my grandfather everyday, I cant imagine my parent or sibling.

The following is a list of those lost:

Children

Charlotte Bacon, age 6

Daniel Barden, age 7

Olivia Engel, age 6

Josephine Gay, age 7

Ana M Marquez-Greene, age 6

Dylan Hockley, age 6

Madeleine F Hsu, age 6

Catherine V Hubbard, age 6

Chase Kowalski , age 7

Jesse Lewis, age 6

James Mattioli, age 6

Grace McDonnell, age 7

Emilie Parker, age 6

Jack Pinto, age 6

Noah Pozner, age 6

Caroline Previdi, age 6

Jessica Rekos, age 6

Avielle Richman, age 6

Benjamin Wheeler, age 6

Allison N Wyatt, age 6

Adults

Rachel Davino, age 29

Dawn Hochsprung, age 47

Anne Marie Murphy, age 52

Lauren Rousseau, age 30

Mary Sherlach, age 56

Victoria Soto, age 27

It's so easy to say, "My heart/prayers goes out." How about this...here's the address for Sandy Hook Elementary School: 12 Dickenson Drive, Sandy Hook, CT 06482 Take five minutes tonight. Sit down with your kid. Write a letter. Draw a picture. Make a card. Send it to them. Tell them you're praying for them. Tell them you're so sorry they're hurting. Tell them you love them. Don't just SAY you love them on Facebook...LOVE them for real. Make your love tangible.

I plan on doing this with my brother and sisters tomorrow. You should to.

59. Nail Polish Giveaway!!!!!!!!

A blog I follow is doing a giveaway and to get more entries I need to blog about it. So heres the link to said nail polish giveaway: http://ifeelpolished.blogspot.com/2012/12/giveaway-just-because.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+IFeelPolished+%28I+Feel+Polished%21%29

58. There's A Chip On My Shoulder And Its As Big As A Boulder

One more week of school this year. It's been super stressful. 3 presentations, three papers, and two exams. Plus other thing showing on in my head. Only thing keeping me sane right now is this and listening to musical soundtracks on spotify:

57. 'cause you only show up on the weekends and I drink up every word you're saying

This post is dedicated to an old High School friend of mine. Her name is Caitlin Timmins. If you haven't heard of her, you will soon and/or you already should. She is amazing and very talented. She is currently attending Berklee School of Music in Boston right now. Below is her new song titled Alcohol. Here are the lyrics:

You're kind of like alcohol
on my lips all night
making me feel just rig

ht
but in the morning I wonder why
I drank you at all

You're why I get to bed late
you know just how to be
to get the best of me
but you're always leaving me
with nothing but a headache

CHORUS:
'cause you only show up on the weekends
and I drink up every word you're saying
then I give up 'cause you always get me wasted on you
but pretty soon you'll be gone...

You're like a tall martini
the way you warm me up
you can make me blush,
but you're never enough
of what I need

(CHORUS)

'cause you're kind of like alcohol
on my lips all night
making me feel alright
but in the morning I wonder why

I drank you at all

56. Finals are Horrible and This doesn't help

Stress.

Consuming all of us more than usual around this time of year. Especially me. I am possible failing a class and I don't really have anyone that will make me feel better about it. It sucks. I told myself this semester would be different. I'm glad it's almost over. The only thing I can stand doing right now is my nails. So I will continue to destress with it as much as possible.

God, please guide me.

55. WHY THE HELL AM I STILL AWAKE ?!?!?!?!?!

I don't know but I just can't fall asleep for the life of me. Catching up on ANTM doesn't help either. Jut staring at this now.