25. This time I’m not leaving without you.

So this summer my love for Lady Gaga's music has grown exponentially.

This is a pic from her new music video for "You and I." I love this song. Its amazing, its winning, and just, you need to listen to it. That is all.

Seairra

24. Missing Sleep To Make Monies

So early this morning I had my first desk sitting shift at Sohlberg.

This is the view from where I sit. They just remodeled this summer so the desk area is super nice. I worked from 1am to 7am. I made a large cup of coffee and brought movies to pass the time. I ended up watching Because I Said So, Mean Girls, and Water for Elephants. Then I sat for the last hour waiting for the next person to come so I could go to the bathroom and then finally sleep. When I did get to sleep I was woken up like an hour and a half later to the sounds of people pounding like there's no tomorrow fixing something in the lounge before me. Not winning.

Seairra

23. Chocolate, men, coffee – some things are better rich.

Thank you http://www.coolnsmart.com/coffee_quotes/ for my blog post title today. During move in on Saturday the younger of my two younger sisters accidentally broke my coffee pot. So that night and went to Starbucks and got this:

 

Its Starbucks VIA ReadyBrew Coffeemaker thingy. You put water up to where you want it in the clear compartment, put your VIA in the mug, put the mug in place, and then turn it on and presto, I get coffee. I used it last night for the first time to make a mug of coffee so that I stayed awake during my first 1am-7am desk shift at Sohlberg which means monies for me. Yay. More about that in the next post.

Seairra

22. Do You Believe In Magic?

So before I cam I bought this starter kit to this card game my friend Carol taught before the school year ended last year:

Its called Magic The Gathering. Yes its a nerdy game. I don't plan on becoming one of those people that collect all the cards and play tournaments every week but I just like playing it to have fun. So suck it (Just Kidding :D)

Seairra

21. Music's The Only Reason I Know Time Still Exists

So a few years ago we found this pillow at a Garage sale and I decided that I wanted to bring it to school this year.

I made it extra large because I love the pic. I love music and I love that this pillow has a ton of different instruments on it.

"No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why I know time still exists" Dancing - Elisa

Seairra

20. Back At North Park And All Moved In

I am majorly behind I'm my blog. Got a problem? Well too bad, its my blog. These are gonna be short and sweet so that I can get caught up.

This is my room this year and those are my sisters who, with my mom, basically unpacked and organized everything. Thank you.

Seairra

19. The Power's Out? Whats Gonna Happen To My Ice Cream?

There were some might loud storms this morning that decided to knock out our power for a few hours today. When I found out, the only thing that I thought of is whats gonna happen to my ice cream that I just got. Luckily when I went to check on it after the power had gotten turned back on it hadn't really melted and I had already eaten a bunch after only having got it last night.

Its looks like chocolate, but it actually isn't. It was Black Raspberry Swirl. The brown looking part is actually purple and it is amazing and then the white is vanilla with chocolate chips. So good.

I go back to Chicago on Saturday and I still havent finished packing, and there are still people I want to see. Friends, but I am so ready to be back at school.

Seairra

PS- I know this is another post about ice cream, but so what? Its my happiness, not yours :D

18. Tonights's Gonna Be A Goodnight For The Nerdy Jews

 

This is the nerdy tie I bought for the Bye Bye Birdie Road Rally my senior year. We were called the Nerdy Jews. It was so much fun. I miss the people who did that with me a lot and cant wait to see them again.

Seairra

17. Seairra needs to slow down so she wont make "silly" mistakes.

I was looking for something the other day that my sister lost and found the report card package from my first grade year.

Blast to the past huh? Apparently I was already super good at math, reading, and of course, music. I had troubles with wandering around the room and helping others too much instead of focusing on my own work. Not much difference from now is it?

Seairra

16. My Feet Dont Hurt Anymore, But My Socks Are Blue

Since the at least twenty minute walk around my neighborhood barefoot, my feet have hurt a lot. Today they finally got back to normal after wearing my new TOMS to my friend James's benefit.

They were like 70 bucks with shipping but they are so cute and so comfy, but the insides are this really nice blue lining that dye my sucks a bit blue every time I wear them. Hopefully I don't get caught in rainstorm this year.

Seairra

15. Four-day Weekend Every Week? My Kind Of Schedule :D

So I was checking my schedule this fall because one of my classes got cancelled because of low enrollment and I had to get a new one. I then proceeded to make this.

 

All of my classes are on Tuesday and Thursday this fall!! So winning!!

Seairra

14. **Mutes Friends** Oh My God Its The Ice Cream Truck!!

Ok our Internets been funky the past couple of days so I haven't been able to post anything until now.

So on Thursday i was watching the friends episode after Ross says Rachel's name at his wedding and I thought I heard something. I muted the TV and heard the Ice cream truck. I proceeded to get some change and my Lil brother and go after. I thinking that it wasn't far away decided not to put any shoes on. I actually ended up walking around my neighborhood for twenty minutes (and not on the grass because I somehow forgot it existed) until me and my brother found it. Winning I know. Finally I was able to get this.

Yes its sponge-bob and childish. But who cares?? It was amazing and tasted even better while soaking my winning feet in nice warm water.

Seairra

13. I need more energy so I can fulfill my fun meter.

What goes through your mind when you read that is probably nowhere near close to what I said it about. Ill give you three guesses.
3.?
2.?
1. ? Not yet, well here it is....

Yes that's right folks, The Sims has come to Facebook. Obviously its not going to be anywhere near the quality of the actual game and you have to wait for energy to build to do the more important tasks, but who doesn't love playing Sims.

Sometimes when I see you having fun with others, I wonder why I'm not the one, but then I remember that I can be fun on my own and if we don't get to hang out again, then we'll just have to text.

Seairra

12. Maybe you should learn to unpack sooner than 11 days before you go back

At the time I said that and took this picture it was Tuesday. I was just then unpack and resorting through the stuff that I brought home form school in May that needs to be ready to go in now nine days.

Despite that fact that this is all happening way later than it should be, I am super happy to be able to start the single digit countdown until I get back to Chicago.

"I never was the kind of girl,
That's naturally sure when it comes to love, oh no!
I was insecure, insecure." Fashion of His Love - Lady Gaga


Seairra

11. Fool me once computer chair, shame on you. Fool me twice computer chair, and I end up breaking things.

This is what happens when you lean to far back in our computer chair:

 

This is the container that a bunch of my hair stuff form last school was in. last night i proceeded to finally go through a box of stuff and took this out and set it on the floor. Today I leaned to far and this is what happened. Yes it may have broke, but the falling back in the chair was quite fun.

Sometimes doing things we aren't used and have a chance to hurt can be the best things in the world.

Already having withdrawal form the Chicago cast. Cant wait until the DVD is made so I can actually watch it form the audiences point of view.

Its 2am right now and I am not tired because of the fact that I slept in until 1pm and then took a three hour nap at 3. Yes Sleep is coming back to me. im also wishing that the automatic spell check on Firefox was like word so that I didn't have to back and capitalize all of the "I"'s that i missed. Like that one.

Seairra

10. Watching The Sunset Because im Too Tired For Anything Else

Strike for Chicago was yesterday and it wasn't half bad. The whole cast minus one Amos hart plus a not so large set equals quick Strike and Early lunch Laredo's

Oh my god was Laredo's good. I got this cheese quesadilla and two Cheese Enchiladas. Does it seem like much? I don't care, its my blog. Anyways, it came in a meal for 8.45 and it was Delicious. I love cheese. Being a vegetarian though, I eat way too much of it. Then I got this fried ice cream for dessert. I wish I would have taken a picture because it was amazing. I could even finish it though there was so much. It came with four spoons in it making me feel even more gluttonous for getting it. who cares though becuase it was GOOD. then I got home and took like a four hour nap until 6 o clock. then I watched some tv with my lil bro. Love that kid (most of the time). Then I went outside and watched the sunset.

Can you say winning sunset? I can.

Sometimes we just cant help it to worry about things that are not under our control. And then we cant help to get upset over those things despite the fact that everything is actually okay. We also tend to look back on our past mistakes and think that we are doing them all over again. Thinking that we aren't good enough or if we made the right decision. I know i did this, but I forgot about and focused on the happy. In this case, the sunset and the fact that I go back to Chicago in 12 days.

Seairra

9. WINNING!!!!

So tonight was closing night for Chicago. It was so bittersweet. We had our best house yet. We had least 650 people. The whole front and the middle back section were completely filled. So this post is dedicated to the cast.

You guys are awesome. I am so glad i decided in may to look at Madstage and contact Ken about helping out. I am so glad I chose this show and not big river. You guys were awesome. it was really nice getting to know all of you and being able to help you backstage. You guys are amazing dancers and singers and people. This show is what reminds me why I do theatre and will continue it. Even though we will never all be together ever in the same room, we are all still connected. Ken Urso, you are an amazing director and it sucks to see you go back to New York. Hopefully we get to work together again soon. Kate, you as a stage manager is amazing and I don't know how you stayed sane throughout this production. You dealt with every little thing and i thank you for that. it is sad to see strike being tomorrow but we will get to look back on this for a long time and say what an amazing job we did. I do believe that we had the talent to be called "Better than Broadway." It will be so weird come Monday and I am not heading to Middleton by five and charging cigarettes, getting the liquor from the fridge and making sure the confetti is set. But we did. We did while being super winners also.

To all that jazz and winning,

Seairra

8. And Thats What We Call Vandalism

Yesterday was the last day of my CTM internship. This weeks kids weren't too bad and the show ended up great.

 

Threee of the kdis from another group. The nerdy glasses were just too much of a good chance to pass up.

After that i headed over to Middleton for our second to best show yet. The house was awesome. I had a bit of a moment at the end of act one though. There was a point where our Roxie mic needed to be checked and so I did that but she was late for her entrance. After that scene it still wasn't working well so I was told to fix it. I wasnt exactly sure of what I was supposed to do but I did what I thought i should do. I made it completely worse because then it didn't even work and she missed half of the closing scene. I felt really bad about it but I guess it was just time for one of those really good cries.

You know those times when nothing super horrible is happening but you just need to. That's what it felt like. That along with my dad acting is usual self and finding out im not eligible for my health insurance anymore made last night even greater. My dad tends to get angry and yell at the most stupid of things and i just cant stand it. But what can you do?

Seairra

7. Cereal Is Good Anytime Of Day

Tonight had to be the best show yet of Chicago. We had a full on crowd clap in the middle of Both Reached For The Gun. It was awesome. Afterwords, a bunch of the cast went out to eat at Cheeseburger in Paradise, where I had a water and some deep fried pickles that came with an appetizer that our choreographer ordered. Then I went home and proceeded to have my dinner:

Its not that great of quality because my camera battery was dead so this was with my phone, but it was so good.

I had a chat with James before the show. He was the one who let me borrow this Idea from him. He asked me how it was going with this project. Its going pretty well I said. I told him that because of being busy with CTM and the show, Ive already had a couple days where Ive blogged twice to make up for missing the previous. He also said just to make sure to take a picture every day. Its already been a week, but I am really looking forward to the next 51 weeks. I feel like even in this first week, Ive stopped focusing on the negative things in my life a little less. I cant wait to see how this evolves once I get done with the show and once I get back to school.

Seairra

6. I'm gonna get a PhD in Analyzation

Dont you just love little kids? Today at lunch for CTM's Summer Drama camp, the three boys that are in my group were sitting together and they had finished their lunch and were talking. Me and one of the other interns, Miranda, overhear them talking about PhD's:

 The basis of their conversation was like this: PhD's are what you study in school. They are the same thing as bachelors degree's. If you don't have a PhD, you will end up on the streets.

Today was a good day up until after I got home from rehearsal. I had to take so much crap from siblings and wouldn't you know, my dad is blaming himself for things that aren't under his control. Lovely. I'm just so tired of taking peopls crap. I do truly love myself so I don't know why others cant. It was just one of those days. Also, im going to end up having a seven dollar refund check this fall and have to pay out of pocket in the spring if I cant find some private loan to get.

I'm sorry if you cant accept me, but that's who I am so take it or leave it. just one more picture that reminds me of that:

 

This song is my anthem right now:

"I'm gonna marry the night
I won't give up on my life
I'm a warrior queen
Live passionately tonight

I'm gonna marry the dark
Gonna make love to the stark
I'm a soldier to my own emptiness
I am a winner" - Lady Gaga - Marry The Night

Seairra

5. What A Wonderful World

Yes this one is a day late. Ive been very busy with CTM and Chicago. And just plain tiredness. Typs.

Yesterday was pretty much a calm day for me except for the paying for school thing which carried over into to today also. I actually have two pictures today because I couldn't choose.

 

Aren't the clouds so pretty? I love looking at nicely lit clouds. Kind of just makes all the cares go away. More to come for today's actual post.

Seairra

4.Oh my gosh, theres our show. Im such a geek.

So today was the first day of the last week of my internship with Children's Theatre of Madison. The first week was awesome. The second week, not so much. This week looks like its going to be great. The director is pretty sweet and gave a twenty minute break after lunch to relax. Twas awesome.

Anyways, that finished around 5pm and then we had to wait with our kids outside while their parents picked them up. im standing there looking for parents when I see this:

Yes. It is only a poster for Chicago. But I was super haps to see it. First, what I call professional show, that Ive worked on where Ive seen an ad for in such a public place. Yes it only a column which people have been posting event ads on since forever, but still, it looks super awesome and stands out amongst everything else. Whoever posted it there, thank you :)

My dad comes home tomorrow from being in a nursing home for a couple of months for a broken leg. Am I happy? Yes. Will his dumb parent humor and weird jokes be any different? Probably not. Hoping for the best.

Seairra

3. Bloons Tower Defense 4

You know how there are those things or games or whatever you want that are just really simple yet whenver you do them, you end up doing them for a couple of hours to just be happy and not worry? This is one of those games. Bloons Tower Defense 4 is pretty simple. You have a bunch of towers most of which contain a monkey that shoots something and you have to shoot all of the bloons before they reach the end and pass so many levels. See simple. I did this for a few hours yesterday and was just fine.

 

I also had the most amazing grilled cheese yesterday at the great dane which is why this is getting posted now and not last night. I for some reason wasnt feeling to well afterwards and then I had my internship at CTM so yea.

It will be nice to get a decent night of sleep tonight and tomorrow and then off to the show again.

Seairra

2. This sucks to clean up, but its so pretty :)

Tonight was the second showing of Chicago. I think it went even better. No noticeable mike problems, No wardrobe malfunctions, we did have one disconnected light, and a lovely glitter drop. The cast did a really nice job tonight and most of us went to hang out at TGI Fridays afterwards:

 Ken, our director, Mikey, our Fred Casely, and Chaz, Spirit of Fosse in the show. What a great night it was. It felt really nice to talk and laugh about all the different funny stuff that has happened.

Its short. i know, but I is tired. Very. So good night.

Seairra

Project Happiness 365 / 1. Opening night of Chicago :)

            Here is an except from a friend of mine who i am borrowing this idea from. i take no credit for it and it goes all to him, James Hansen:
 
            "THIS IS ABOUT ME. ME ME ME ME ME. Alright. I’m glad we got that settled. So I’ve been struggling with happiness a bit as of late. I’ve lost a lot of what I’ve gained and realized. Sometimes I’m better at staying in each moment and laughing, and some days I’m not very good at it. I mean, yes I can realize that I have beautiful loving friends but sometimes it just didn’t mean as much to me. I KNOW IT’S AWFUL! Especially for me. For everything I’ve written. But like any other human being I’m not the greatest at taking my own advice. SURPRISE. Some days I smile for no reason and some days I can’t stop holding my breath. Some days I grab onto my stomach and shake it to try and let go of some mysterious bowling ball that has decided to camp out there. But I’ve decided to take control of my life. Cuz it’s mine. My life. I still strongly believe you have the choice between happy or sad. So I choose happy once again. I’m doing things that make ME happy."

Thank you James. So that is pretty much exactly how I feel at the moment and what I am going to do. So here comes the first post.


Tonight was the opening night for Middleton Player's Theatre production of Chicago which I am assistant stage managing. It is amazing and I am still running on excitement from that otherwise I would be dead asleep right now. It went very well and we had a nice sized crowd. I even get my own little chance on stage, even though Im holding stairs, It is a blast. Afterwards there was, and probably still is going on at the moment, a cast party at Sprecher's which is where my picture comes in:

         The food was on the house which means the dessert was too, which included the little cream puff in the corner but also the most delicious looking piece of cake i have seen in a very long time. it tastes as good as it looks.

       This next year is going to be long, but It is going to be full of Happiness, Surprises, and most importantly Theatre.


Seairra

A Long Overdue Apology

This is long overdue. I just want to say this all at once and in one place so I don’t have to go searching for bits and pieces. I want to say that there have been times when I’ve hurt someone and not apologized for it. There have been times where I have made others feel bad by begging them to hang out with me and then getting pissed at them when they can’t. I have tried to hear what everyone’s talking about so I can be invited or notified of get-togethers or parties and then relying on rides from them without anything in return(which I truly am sorry for, I haven’t been able to get my license yet and I don’t have a ton of money to help pay for gas). I have talked about people behind their backs with other friends just so those friends like me more. I have treated siblings bad because I’m trying to rest or relax from a long day or rehearsal. I’ve complained on Facebook statuses or notes about how I feel like crap and I have no friends when I truly, truly do, otherwise they wouldn’t put up with me. I am truly sorry for this. I’ve realized in the past couple of weeks that dwelling in the non-positive is just not good. I want to try to more happy and find the positive in everything. It makes my day so much better when I do this. I also want to start something. I want to try this thing where for an entire year, 365 days, I take a picture of something that made me happy in that day and make a post about it. I got this idea from a (hopefully) new friend of mine named James who started this last year. Reading his posts about this subject are just inspiring and I can’t stop thinking about it. So its done. I am doing it. I am sorry for things Ive done or said. Time for the happiness :D (And Dancing to Gaga :D )