65. I'm Gonna Lift Him Up, Higher And Higher

Good Afternoon everyone. I'm writing this as I sit in Starbucks enjoying the rainy but beautiful day God has planned for me today.

Today's devotional is centered around trusting Jesus in every detail of your life. "But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him." - Jeremiah 17:7. 

The rest of this semester and my life is definitely a situation where I need to play my trust in Him. Lately, I've been worried about all these little things that have to happen and the choices I have made. Did I do the right thing taking a show off in the theatre? How am I going to write this 20 page screenplay when I have all these other things happening in my life?

I've realized the past few days and weeks that God is the only one that I can count on for forever and that I truly do need to trust in Him and instead of analyzing why certain things happen in my life.

Today also mentions how while we were still living in darkness, God was already working to shine a light and bring us out. This is so true. I am so thankful and grateful for how God has helped me through some tough times, even though I might not have seen it at the moment.

I'll leave you today with a prayer, some verses, and a song.

God - Blessed are you and this day that you have made. Thank you for all the ways you have shown yourself to me. Continue to guide and help me with your Light. You are the way maker. Amen.

Verses: Romans 8:28, Psalm 40:2, and 1 Peter 2:9

64. Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever

Good Afternoon Everyone,

So while I was on tour I was introduced to this devotional book called Jesus Calling. So far, I have absolutely loved it. Especially today. The first couple of sentences for today say this:

This is a time in your life when you must learn to let go: of loved ones, of possessions, of control. In order to let go of something that is precious to you, you need to rest in My Presence, where you are complete.

How amazing is that? It's so true. When I got back from tour I had some time to meditate with God and I realized that to get back some order in my life and to be able to reconnect with God that I needed to pull back from my theatre life. It was such a tough decision but I can see that it will be good in the long run. I have been so caught up in theatre and so involved in it that I haven't been able to connect with God in such a long time. I am so ready to feel the warmth of His secure embrace again.

Let me leave you with some kind words and some verses. The words: if you are struggling with something, take some time with God and let him light the way. Know that He will guide you in the correct way and will be there to guide you always.

The Verses: Psalm 89:15, Hebrews 13:8, and Isaiah 41:13.

Peace,
Seairra

63. Praise God From Whom All Blessings Flow, Praise Him All Creatures Here Below....

Hey everyone :D

I'm back on here. I know I started this over a year ago in pursuit of finding true happiness within me and the world and wanting to do a post everyday, but God just wanted me to hold out and I would get back to a good place. And I think I am. A week ago I got back from California where I went on tour in the Bay Area with my schools( North Park) gospel choir. God moved within me so deeply during that tour. I realized that I had really truly missed faith in my life. I go to a Christian university and I call myself a Christian but this tour and God helped me see that I was ready to put God first in my life again. God has helped me so much that I wasn't able to see it until this trip. To those who have heard this from me already, maybe I seem overly enthusiastic about this, but I'm not. I am so in love with God and so excited to be able to fully embrace him. Now I'm rambling, but hey, its in my blog title. I want leave everyone with a video that is of one entire concert we did on tour. This was also the night that everything shifted for me, so I hope it blesses you too. Enjoy.

62. At least you were thrown clear, I’m still stuck in here....

You’re flat on your face in a field 50 feet from a burning Cadillac
At least you were thrown clear, I’m still stuck in here
Kick off my shoes I let the flames crawl up and burn right through me
I'm silent as a movie, I always thought you knew me better

At least you were thrown clear
I’m still stuck in here
At least you were thrown clear
At least you were thrown clear
I’m still stuck in here
And I’m still stuck

And now you are hurt, and you are sure I could not be hurt too
And just because you’re bleeding you think that I’m not bleeding
And just because you’re full of yourself doesn’t mean I’m not full of you

At least you were thrown clear
I’m still stuck in here
At least you were thrown clear
At least you were thrown clear
I’m still stuck in here
And I’m still stuck

And so we burn silently
Silent nights silent days
And so we burn silently
It just seems wrong

At least you were thrown clear
At least you were thrown clear
At least you were thrown

These are the lyrics to a song called Car Crash by the band Wakey!Wakey! 

They don’t describe exactly what happened in a dream I had yesterday during a nap, but somewhat. I dreamt that I was in car with someone and they lost control of the car and we went over the side of the overpass we were on and went straight into plunging in the lake or large body of water below us.

That was just a nap. That dream caused me not to be able to get to sleep until just after 4am because I was scared. Why? I don’t know. I looked up some possibly meanings of this dream.

To dream of being in a crash or something crashing around you implies that you have finally been able to overcome an obstacle or hardship. It may also symbolize anxieties you have regarding becoming the victim of an accident. To dream of a car accident symbolizes your emotional state. You may be harboring deep anxieties and fears. Are you "driving" yourself too hard? Perhaps you need to slow down before you hit disaster. You need to rethink or re-plan your course of actions and set yourself on a better path. 

For me, I think it’s closer to the second one. Am I driving myself too hard? Do I need to slow down and rethink what I’m doing? Maybe. I do have some deep anxieties and fears. Some of them I haven’t been able to admit to anyone but myself. Hopefully soon though. I haven’t found someone yet that I can be that close to. I hope you do. I hope any of you out there can find someone or have found someone that you can tell your deepest fears and anxieties. It will help.

Or tell them here. If you really just want somewhere to say it. Say it here. I'll start. 

One of my deepest fears is that I am a failure and that because of that I will disappoint my friends and family, not be able to help my family ever get on their feet properly again, and then not be around when any of my closest family members pass away.

61. Nails, Nails, and More Nails!!!

Hello everyone, how were your holidays?

I for one, took a break from blogging. I've been going through some things with my family. They are having a pretty hard time right now and its a lot to deal with plus the fact that I have to go back to school in a week. I hope those of you out there who have grown up with a lot never have to feel what it feels like to have to choose which bills to pay on time and how it feels to have your only means of transportation taken away in the middle of a snowstorm.

Now on to the point of this blog post. I want to share with you a little something going on over at laceandlaquers.com. there is an AMAZING Nail Polish Giveaway happening right now. It is huge!! And you have so many chances to enter and win.

Click Here to head on over and enter.

Blogging about gets you ten more entries in the contest, hence this one.

Nail polish for me has become really big recently. I dont know what it is. its just a really easy way to show a little bit more style in me since that is kind of hard in my life. And its pretty easy if you ask me.

Here's a pic of what is on my nails right now. I have to fix my thumb but that just means I get to use more nail polish :D