42. Im Going Home To The Place Where I Belong

November 1^st – Today I headed home. It was really weird to leave school for something other than a break but I needed it. During the day I focused on getting thing packed and talking with professors about why I was leaving. I was having a really hard time figuring out what I need to bring home and what I was going to leave behind while I was there because I knew I wouldn’t be able to concentrate at home. It made me see that sometimes with directing, you don’t really know how something is going to turn out until you actually experience it and have to prepare for what comes afterwards. This was the first time ever that I experienced a death so close to me and I just couldn’t get over the fact that I couldn’t figure out what to do with myself even though all I had to do was throw some clothes in a suitcase. Right before I left to take the bus downtown, I went to gospel choir rehearsal and the touring ensemble held a prayer circle for me and another member who had lost her grandfather while on tour. It was really helpful. It was nice to know that despite these people not being family and possibly not know how I’m feeling, to be able to say the exact right things I needed to hear. I have faith that it was God. I don’t know who else could have helped this much. He’s just one big director knowing how to put pieces of a life back together once ones world has been turned upside down.